Finding your way back to God

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  “My people have been lost sheep,
Their shepherds have caused them to go astray
They have turned them away on the mountains.
They have lost their way
And can’t remember how to get back to the sheepfold
They have forgotten their resting place.

All who found them devoured them.
Their enemies said,
‘We did nothing wrong in attacking them,
For they sinned against the Lord,
Their true place of rest,
And the hope of their ancestors.’ Jeremiah 50:6-7

 

  •    Awbad (Lost): to wander away, lose oneself, to perish, destroy, fail, vanish, die, go astray,
  •     Tawaw (Astray): to stray, deceive, to make err, stagger, seduce, to be out of the way
  •     Rebets (Resting place/sheepfold ) a place to rest, lie down, a resting dwelling place, used 4 times in scripture as a place of rest and safety in the hands of God for His people and for those who seek Him.

    Many of God’s people have wandered away from their safe place of rest and are on the path to death. They have been deceived and led astray. They believed in err and were seduced by new ideas and false teachings. The shepherds assigned over them led them astray and have not gone after them. They wander from mountain to hill alone, they have forgotten their resting place with the Shepherd of their soul.

          God’s people have left the flock, many are lost and they have forgotten the way back to their resting place. They can’t remember how to get back to the sheepfold to find rest. Why has this happened? The shepherds of the people caused them to go astray, they have ignored them and their cries for help.  We, too, have lost our way and are far from God’s laws and ways. Many are wandering and don’t know how to find their way back.

     All we like sheep have gone astray; we have turned every one to his own way; and the Lord hath laid on him the iniquity of us all. Isaiah 53:6

  I recently heard a preacher, Richard Owens Roberts, speak at a local church. He spoke on revival and one thing I heard him repeatedly say that has stayed in my thoughts is this: “Be so close to God, that what troubles Him, should trouble you, commit yourself to seek God. See what He sees, feel what He feels”

        The Lord has his heart set on the lost. Just as the Father of the Prodigal son awaited his return, so the Lord eagerly awaits for His lost sheep to return to Him, in fact, He is going after and reaching out to each one. To those who have turned from God and found themselves stumbling, He warns “Give glory to the Lord your God, before he cause darkness, and before your feet stumble upon the dark mountains, and, while ye look for light, he turn it into the shadow of death, and make it gross darkness. But if ye will not hear it, my soul shall weep in secret places for your pride; and mine eye shall weep sore, and run down with tears, because the Lord‘s flock is carried away captive.” Jer 13:16-17

          The Lord said “You come to my house and lift up Holy hands, but what are you doing about the Lost?”.  I saw a great flood of water quickly rushing by, and in it were many people and all their material possessions. Across the waters or on top of the waters, off to a distance, I could see Jesus. He called out “I call them back”. Surely this is the heart of God – gathering all those who have strayed away.

 Jesus came to save the lost
         Jesus sought out those who society despised. He didn’t hide in the temple with the righteous, but instead, He went out among the people. Jesus was very specific when He told us who he came for: He told us that He came for the lost (Matt18:11), and He came to seek and save that which was lost (Luke 19:10). That should be the desire of our heart also. 

Who are the Lost?

          The bible tells us the lost are God’s people who have strayed from Him, the people of Judah and Israel. “But go rather to the lost sheep of the house of Israel. And as ye go, preach, saying, The kingdom of heaven is at hand” Matthew 10:6

       The lost are those in our families who have turned from God, Christians who have made their own way and no longer follow God’s path and in my heart I know there are those around us in our Christian circles and churches who secretly feel lost and they don’t know how to find their way back. What man of you, having an hundred sheep, if he lose one of them, doth not leave the ninety and nine in the wilderness, and go after that which is lost, until he find it?  And when he hath found it, he layeth it on his shoulders, rejoicing.  And when he cometh home, he calleth together his friends and neighbours, saying unto them, Rejoice with me; for I have found my sheep which was lost.  I say unto you, that likewise joy shall be in heaven over one sinner that repenteth, more than over ninety and nine just persons, which need no repentance.  Either what woman having ten pieces of silver, if she lose one piece, doth not light a candle, and sweep the house, and seek diligently till she find it?  And when she hath found it, she calleth her friends and her neighbours together, saying, Rejoice with me; for I have found the piece which I had lost. Likewise, I say unto you, there is joy in the presence of the angels of God over one sinner that repenteth.” Luke 15:4


Warn the Wicked   

  It’s easy to sit in our churches and bible studies, but to go our after the lost is taking a risk. I recently watched a YouTube of Kirk Cameron talking about his biblical views and his stance on many issues. The media, celebrities and talk shows tried to humiliate him and twist his words. Their words towards him were hateful and demeaning. Don’t expect the world to love you, because it won’t. Jesus said; ” If the world hate you, ye know that it hated me before it hated you Go out and save the lost, grab those about to fall to death, do all you can to teach our next generation about the Lord Jesus, keeping the lost in prayer, doing all you can everyday to warn others and save their soul. We are commissioned to: warn every man, teach them in all wisdom; so we may present every man perfect in Christ Jesus, warn the unruly, comfort the feebleminded, support the weak, be patient towards all men, warn the wicked of his ways and tell him to turn from it. The Lord wants the wicked to change their ways, the unrighteous man to change his thoughts and return unto the Lord- For the Lord will have mercy on him, for he will abundantly pardon. That promise is yea and amen in Christ Jesus. Repent and the Lord will have mercy on you. It doesn’t matter what lies in your past- repent and turn from your ways. Don’t be deceived, we’ve all sinned and come short of the glory of God, but through Christ’s death and resurrection, our sins can be washed away leading us up to God, your heavenly Father- there He has a place prepared for you- each one of you, as if you were his one and only child. Truly amazing! 

 
Some are set in their rebellion, and to them, hear the warnings:

  • For rebellion is as the sin of witchcraft, and stubbornness is as iniquity and idolatry in 1 Samuel 15
  • An evil man seeketh only rebellion: therefore a cruel messenger shall be sent against him Proverbs 17:11
  • But they rebelled, and vexed his holy Spirit: therefore he was turned to be their enemy, and he fought against them Isaiah 63:10
  • Woe to the rebellious children, saith the Lord, that take counsel, but not of me; and that cover with a covering, but not of my spirit, that they may add sin to sin Isaiah 30:1
  • But if ye will not obey the voice of the Lord, but rebel against the commandment of the Lord, then shall the hand of the Lord be against you, as it was against your fathers 1 Samuel 12:15

 “They have lost their way and can’t remember how to get back to the sheepfold”    
       It’s sad to imagine being lost and not knowing how to find your way back. Have you ever felt that way?  When you feel like there is a distance between you and God…when you know you’ve lost that closeness and that first love you once had…. When you feel as if you’ve lost your way, you’re calling Him- but something isn’t right.
           You do all the right things – show up to church, take communion, read a proverb or two, proclaim your Christianity to others around you, but deep inside you are still striving to get back to that place. You feel like you’ve slipped, fallen off the path, backslidden and don’t know how to get back to where you were.

        I have found that there are two main reasons for this
            1- It could be a lie from satan to keep you down and to separate you from God (Sometimes you just need encouragement and to remember how much HE loves you )       or  2- There are sins in your life that you have allowed and made excuses for. Your sins are weighing you down are now pulling from the Lord. Perhaps, you honor Him with your lips, but your have turned your back on him? Perhaps, you have made your own way, your own rules, and your own laws to suit your own lifestyle- I mean…if everyone else is doing it, why can’t I?

Luke 15:4  gives us the first direction on finding our way back- repentance. In Acts, Paul taught us to turn back to God and prove it by the way we live by getting rid of all sin and wickedness.

     There was a time I felt lost and I couldn’t find my way back either. I remember trying everything to get back to God. Everything, I mean- well….. I was trying to make my own way. I didn’t want to give up the sins in my life. I had an excuse and a good argument for everything I did. I was surrounded by this world and all it had to offer. I didn’t see any way out.  I didn’t realize that turning back to God was as easy as turning around. I felt trapped in my sins and my surroundings. I was completely blinded by the god of this world (Luke 19:10). It’s not always easy to change your direction. It may mean giving up friends, family, where you live, addictions, etc., but you have to make a decision. Do you continue to follow the desires of your flesh or will you stop and follow the desires of the Holy Spirit of God. You read that and think the words are nice, but they aren’t really sinking in your heart. I know. I’ve been there.
     It won’t be until you’ve been obedient and changed your ways that you will find what you are looking for. Satan has a master plan of deception for your life. He lets you think you rule, but who do you really serve? Do you serve your lusts and passions or do you ask what God’s will is for you? Wherever your treasure is, there your heart will be. So ask yourself…what do you desire? What do you treasure? Is God truly the desire and treasure of your heart….or have you put idols there in His place?  The world offers fake happiness. True joy and fulfillment can only come with Christ. Satan wants you to think that you can find happiness with all the world has to offer, but that is a lie. So what’s your excuse? You don’t know how? Start with prayer- on your knees before God with true repentance. Ask him for help.

           There is a verse in Jeremiah that I love (NLT) 6:16 This is what the Lord says “STOP at the crossroads and LOOK around. ASK for the old, godly way, and walk in it. TRAVEL it’s path, and you will find rest for your souls”

The Lord gives us 4 instructions
1-Stop
2-Look
3-Ask
4-go!

Hear the Word of the Lord:

Therefore also now, saith the Lord, turn ye even to me with all your heart, and with fasting, and with weeping, and with mourning And rend your heart, and not your garments, and turn unto the Lord your God: for he is gracious and merciful, slow to anger, and of great kindness, and repenteth him of the evil Joel 2:12

“ I have not pleasure in the death of the wicked, but that the wicked turn from his way and live, turn ye, turn ye from your evil ways, for why shall you die? Your righteousness will not save you, but if you turn from your wickedness and sin and do what is lawful and right you will live.” Isaiah 55

 If that nation, against whom I have pronounced, turn from their evil, I will repent of the evil that I thought to do unto them. Jeremiah 18:8

  “Brethren, if anyone among you wanders from the truth, and someone turns him back, let him know that he who turns a sinner from the error of his way will save a soul from death and cover a multitude of sins. James 5:19

The harvest truly is plenteous, but the labourers are few; Pray ye therefore the Lord of the harvest, that he will send forth labourers into his harvest Matthew 9;36-37

“Come now, let us reason together,” says the LORD. “Though your sins are like scarlet, they shall be as white as snow; though they are red as crimson, they shall be like wool Jeremiah 3:14 “Return, O faithless children, declares the LORD; for I am your master; I will take you, one from a city and two from a family, and I will bring you to Zion.”Isaiah 1:18

For thus saith the Lord God; Behold, I, even I, will both search my sheep, and seek them out. As a shepherd seeketh out his flock in the day that he is among his sheep that are scattered; so will I seek out my sheep, and will deliver them out of all places where they have been scattered in the cloudy and dark day. And I will bring them out from the people, and gather them from the countries, and will bring them to their own land, and feed them upon the mountains of Israel by the rivers, and in all the inhabited places of the country. I will feed them in a good pasture, and upon the high mountains of Israel shall their fold be: there shall they lie in a good fold, and in a fat pasture shall they feed upon the mountains of Israel. I will feed my flock, and I will cause them to lie down, saith the Lord God. I will seek that which was lost, and bring again that which was driven away, and will bind up that which was broken, and will strengthen that which was sick: but I will destroy the fat and the strong; I will feed them with judgment. And as for you, O my flock, thus saith the Lord God; Behold, I judge between cattle and cattle, between the rams and the he goats.23 And I will set up one shepherd over them, and he shall feed them, even my servant David; he shall feed them, and he shall be their shepherd. And I the Lord will be their God, and my servant David a prince among them; I the Lord have spoken it.  And ye my flock, the flock of my pasture, are men, and I am your God, saith the Lord God Ez 34:11-17,23-24, 31

“I call them back” Reach out to the lost, warning them every day
You Seek Me but do not find Me
Can a Christian lose their salvation?
Satan is after your kids, protect them

“I am sending you out …Be as gentle as a dove and wise as a serpent…Be on guard.” Matthew 16

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                   It’s time to change- are you ready? Are you willing to step out for Christ? I want to see “God’s kingdom come on earth as it is in Heaven” don’t you? I want to remind you of who you are in Christ, and what He has commissioned you to do. Be Strong and Very Courageous. Decide today who you will follow. What’s that? You’ve been knocked down and discouraged? oh- get over it! The church needs you- dust of, get back up and hear the word of the Lord:

Matthew  16 “I am sending you out like sheep among wolves. Therefore be as shrewd as snakes and as innocent as doves.  Be on your guard; you will be handed over to the local councils and be flogged in the synagogues.  On my account you will be brought before governors and kings as witnesses to them and to the Gentiles. But when they arrest you, do not worry about what to say or how to say it. At that time you will be given what to say,  for it will not be you speaking, but the Spirit of your Father speaking through you.

YOU ARE BEING SENT OUT TO DO THE WORKS JESUS DID. IT’S TIME TO CHANGE- TO BE THE NEW AND DIFFERENT PERSON CHRIST HAS CALLED US OUT TO BE.

Luke 10:19  Behold, I give unto you power to tread on serpents and scorpions, and over all the power of the enemy: and nothing shall by any means hurt you. Notwithstanding in this rejoice not, that the spirits are subject unto you; but rather rejoice, because your names are written in heaven.

AND YOU CAN BE CONFIDENT OF THIS; THAT HE WHO BEGAN A GOOD WORK IN YOU WILL CARRY IT ON UNTIL COMPLETION UNTIL THE DAY OF JESUS CHRIST. THE POWER THAT RAISED CHRIST FROM THE DEAD LIVES WITHIN YOU.  YOU CAN DO ALL THINGS THROUGH CHRIST WHO STRENGTHENS YOU.

You have been chosen: Jesus said :“My Father has entrusted everything to me. No one truly knows the Son except the Father, and no one truly knows the Father except the Son and those to whom the Son chooses to reveal him.” Luke 10:22

We’ve been called to do the Works Jesus did. John 10 :12-18 Verily, verily, I say unto you, He that believeth on me, the works that I do shall he do also; and greater works than these shall he do; because I go unto my Father. And whatsoever ye shall ask in my name, that will I do, that the Father may be glorified in the Son. If ye shall ask any thing in my name, I will do it. If ye love me, keep my commandments. And I will pray the Father, and he shall give you another Comforter, that he may abide with you for ever; Even the Spirit of truth; whom the world cannot receive, because it seeth him not, neither knoweth him: but ye know him; for he dwelleth with you, and shall be in you. I will not leave you comfortless: I will come to you.

The Message translation : The person who trusts me will not only do what I’m doing but even greater things, because I, on my way to the Father, am giving you the same work to do that I’ve been doing. You can count on it. From now on, whatever you request along the lines of who I am and what I am doing, I’ll do it. That’s how the Father will be seen for who he is in the Son. I mean it. Whatever you request in this way, I’ll do.

Think about that: The works Jesus did and even greater works in His name because He has gone to the Father. He walked on water, healed the sick, set the captives free, turned water into wine, feed 5000 men with a small basket of food, calmed the stormy sea, healed disease, brought the dead back to life, restored a severed ear, opened blind ears, caused the deaf to hear, caught a fish with a coin in it’s mouth, healed and freed those possessed by a demon/s, healed the mute, healed a withered hand, healed a paralyzed man, healed leprosy. Jesus said you can do these works, and even greater in His name so He can honor the Father.

I want to see a church on fire for God. I want our lives to Glorify Him. I don’t want to live and learn a life of a watered down gospel. I know God’s word is alive and powerful and I want to see His people Glorify His name in our places of worship.

Easter Sunday is around the corner and yet again I dread going to church.  I used to feel bad about thinking that. It seems nothing has changed since I was that 13 yr old rebellious teen. I loved God, knew He could do incredible things and even had scripture engrained in my heart- but church- ugh! was torture to me. I can remember that Sunday as if it were yesterday.  “ I AM NOOOOOOOT going to church!!” I yelled to my father as I sprinted out the door and down the street. He chased me 3 blocks as I sprinted along the sidewalk.

I see God’s work in my life. I see Him answer prayers. I’ve seen Him do mighty miracles and I ‘ve heard His voice. I know how much He loves us and I know without a doubt every single word in the bible is so true- it’s actually alive.  Sometimes I think I’d find the children’s worship much more fun for me. God’s word isn’t boring, but why is church sometimes so difficult to sit through? Maybe it’s my hyperness , I don’t know- but that’s what makes me ME. It may sound like I’m all over the place- but everything fits like a puzzle within my thoughts. The scripture somehow comes together like a puzzle in my mind and it never stops—it goes on and on and on.

I see something missing :
WHERE IS THE FEAR OF GOD IN OUR CHURCHES?
Love for others?

     Has the church gotten too worldly. I questioned even writing this and prayed about it, wondering- should I really put my thoughts here? I prefer to put only God’s word and what the Lord shows me through scripture, but today  is…different. As I talked to the Lord about my thoughts, I sat down at the computer and opened up todays news- Sun Sentinel. Front page- a church is doing a whodunnit, a who shot the pastor  show for Easter. I want to cry.  God’s word, His power, His Majesty, His Holiness, His Mercy is so amazing, so exciting, so opposite of boring to me- how could any worldly idea even match it? Has the true word of God become so boring and lifeless to people that we have to make our churches more worldly to bring them into God’s house.

Where are the works of Jesus in the Church? Are you seeing them in your church? Really…please share to encourage the rest of us. I see sickness, death, depression, complaining, isolation,  texting, disrespect- yes, now we can sip coffee and dip donuts in God’s house.  We can’t for one hour have a little respect. Where is the Fear of God?   Do you know how terrifying it is to be in His presence?  If we saw Him we would surely die!  The Lord is mighty, awesome and so Holy- words on earth cannot even describe it. Once I was before His throne and I was terribly afraid! We are so unworthy, yet He has made us worthy. His Holiness is indescribable, His absolute love for us is beyond our ability to understand.  Have the “worldly” Christians silenced those Christians who want to do the works of Jesus. Where is it? I want to see it. It has been proclaimed for us. Why do I dread going to church?  I love the word of God, I love the Father and I love to sit and study and meditate on scripture all day, yet Sunday morning rolls around and nothing has changed.

And what about HOLINESS. Aren’t we called to be Holy? then why do I cringe with embarrassment when I ride by some of church signs with obvious double meaning- “hey mom,  why does that church say that the pastor is naked?” ok, kids, don’t look, that’s just a ……. ‘uh, mom, why does that sign say come to my church where everyone is naked” don’t read that kids, that’s someone who doesn’t know God. “mom, what does “****** up” mean on that church sign,;uh…. that means they don’t read the bible. It gets worse, maybe it’s just my area, but a lot of the signs are so ungodly and so unholy. Sure, everyone hears the excuse “it calls in the lost” really???? because that is not the way Jesus called in the lost. If there’s one thing. If it looks like a duck, walks like a duck, and acts like a duck, it’s a duck” So with that I can conclude- if it looks unholy, if it sounds unholy, if it acts unholy, well then Its unholy! y ya!

BE STRONG IN THE LORD AND THE POWER OF HIS MIGHT. FEAR GOD AND DO NOT FEAR MAN. REJOICE IN OPPOSITION AND DON’T LET PEOPLE’S SCORN AND COUNTENANCE KNOCK YOU DOWN.

Isaiah 51: 12-17 “I, even I, am he who comforts you.  Who are you that you fear mere mortals,  human beings who are but grass, that you forget the LORD your Maker, who stretches out the heavens and who lays the foundations of the earth, that you live in constant terror every day because of the wrath of the oppressor,  who is bent on destruction?…..  For I am the LORD your God,  who stirs up the sea so that its waves roar— the LORD Almighty is his name. I have put my words in your mouth and covered you with the shadow of my hand— I who set the heavens in place, who laid the foundations of the earth, and who say to Zion, ‘You are my people.’”

            That is yea and amen!

  He has hidden us in the shadow of His hand, but for some of you, it is time to stand up. He is calling many- but who will listen? Who is bold enough to stand in oppositions to the world? Who is strong enough to proclaim Jesus lives in a world where Jesus is mocked?

   When I consider the cross and what Jesus did for me- he took the chastisement I deserved, he was mocked and hated and treated harshly…am I ready to take that hatred from the world as well? It’s not easy, but I think that if we want to see real change in the church,  we need to be ready for opposition. We need to have no fear of naysayers. We need to have fear of God in our churches. We need to stop fearing the words of people  and live by the word of God. I guess what I am saying is this-  If we really want to see the works of Jesus, if we really want to see the fear of God in our churches, we must be ready to step out in God’s way with no mind to people’s criticism.  I just shouldn’t care anymore about peoples opinion- May the Fear of God be mighty and strong within us. May the Lord fill us with amazing Faith and begin to step out in order to Glorify the Lord- and the Lord only. 

                    I don’t want to hear another watered down gospel message. I don’t want to hear all the ugly things you did in your past as you use them as a badge of honor, I don’t want to praise God like we are a bunch of corpses, I don’t want to hear all the church gossip, I don’t want to do to a class on your religious man made rules, I don’t want to go to your club and work my way up into the church hierarchy. I’m so sick and tired of it!  I want to see God’s prescence. I want to see a fear of God. I want to see people hungry for the word. I don’t want to hear another fake encouragement session with man made ideas and philosophy from the pulpit. I don’t want to hear a sermon on why the sacred rituals and the religious sacraments make your church better than everyone else. I can see right through you holy rollers proclaiming the Spirit’s prescence while the air is thick with greed and absolutely no love for those around you even though you proclaim it so loudly. I’m just so annoyed, can you tell?  Money, greed, fame, popularity- I don’t hear this in the words of Jeremiah, Isaiah, or Ezekiel.  I can’t imagine Jeremiah sporting around town with a starbucks in his hand and a $200 shirt and $450 boots.  All I can say right now is

Many will call out to him saying  “Lord, Lord!” and in turn the lord will say, get away from me, I never knew you.

 What do you want to see in the Church? How can we call in the Lost, when there is no where to bring them? Let’s start with this :  Fear of the Lord, Holiness, Faith, Knowledge of the Scriptures, Love for God and a love for all people,Compassion, Mercy, Humility,  those with humble and contrite hearts, Fire of the holy spirit ablaze in believers,Boldness for Christ ,Passion for the lost, Works of the Holy Spirit,Works that Jesus did, and even greater – I want to see.- don’t you?

Lord,  give us, your servants, great boldness in preaching your word. Stretch out your hands with healing powers. May miraculous signs and wonders be done through the name of Jesus Christ. Lead us along the right pathways and teach us and lead us as we bring in the lost as you have commissioned us to do. In the precious name of your son, Jesus, Amen (Act 4:27)

Luke 10:22 You have been chosen.

A Great Shaking

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        I heard these words while I was praying. I did not add to them, I did not take away from them -except for some things directed at me specifically and answers to questions I had asked. Let the Holy Spirit speak to your heart as you read.

07-23-11

The Earth and all that are in it are mine, saith the Lord
Their ways are perverted and they refuse to listen.
I am the Holy and Powerful God
There is none like me
None before me
for I AM

For My people are rebellious and refuse to listen
and I said
 “Lord, won’t you soften their hearts?
   Will you open their eyes?
    Will you let them see?”
And I heard:
 They see, but do not
They hear but won’t listen
I call, but they turn

There will be a great upshaking
For the Lord is a consuming Fire
A great Blaze is HE.

Look! The Lord comes!
Weep you people!
Cry out quickly!
before your time has run out.

September 2010

The heavens are His Mighty Throne
and the Earth is his footstool.
He will slam the nations with His feet (I saw wrath poured out)
for the whole world has started to turn from Him.
They have turned their back on Him
   —and to the churches- How are you reaching the How are you  lost?
Are you bringing them in?

You come to my house and raise your hands
but you must gather as many as you can.

2012
Though the winds come
You shall not fall
For I am with you
I am your God
I am Holy
Come with trembling fear and reverence before Me
for no one understands
No one is wise
Do they know who I am?
I am the all powerful God
My lightning flashes throught the sky
and my breath breaks the mountains
I am furious with my people
Who in all is wise?
Who knows Me – The Lord God Almighty
For I am about to do something new in your day
that you would not believe if I had told you.

Are you angry Lord?
My wrath is boiling over
Lord, I’m sorry, I stand silent

Lord, why does your wrath boil over?
For My People have rejected Me

What shall I tell
them?
Tell them I love them

2012
My people are lost sheep
There is no void to the sinning
Tell my people I love them

Listen, Obey the Sabbath
I still love you
You shall walk across the waters and you shall not be afraid
Don’t you know how much I love you?
Tell me Lord so I understand
Among all the earth I see you and listen to you
I hear your cry and see your tears
All the earth and Heavens are Mine
I can make the Earth Quake with a blast of my breath
Yet I am genle witht my hand reaching out to you
Powers of the enemy are coming down
Strong because they know there is little time left
The children, the children, the children
My children need to know me